Sitting here too tired to read, too wound up to sleep. Sleep and I used to be friends. Seems like that was a million restless nights ago. Yeah ,I exaggerate but it has been a long time. Some nights I go to sleep pretty easily but wake up all night long. It helps to turn on some mindless television especially something that I have seen before to help lull me to sleep. Even though all those "in the know" apparently say that having the tv on when your going to sleep isn't restful.
Right now I am sitting in a quiet empty house feeling jealous of the dog he looks so peaceful. Tonight the quiet isn't so relaxing it's almost a loud quiet. Do you know what I mean? No television,radio,just me and the air conditioner motor. The sound of the fridge defrosting and the cat digging his nails into what ever he sees fit to use as a scratching post. Sometimes he decides my pillow is that place.
I don't like the way I feel tonight ,I am tired. I don't feel so great , a little nauseous. I don't want to sleep yet but I am feeling like I am about to tumble into slumber land. I know I will sleep for 15 minutes then be awake.
I feel like all my thoughts are jumbled.
I never used to but I am beginning to hate the dark. Not fear it but some nights it just feels so damn long.
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