Sometimes I wonder about how things would of been different in my life. If I had made even one small decision differently.I mean even a real small one. If one Saturday I took the train to work instead of the bus way back 30 years ago when I worked at the mall.
I may of talked with some one about their day. Maybe they worked at a job they liked, and told me their company was hiring. Would I have gone to the other job and perhaps liked it and never become a nanny like I did .
What if a few weeks ago I found my keys 15 minutes earlier ,would I have been part of the accident that delayed an already late me ?
I don't think about this often just once and a while.
Especially when I am late or early and just avoided some sort of problem. A car accident, a fire,finding a dead body( did that once-another story!!)
Some people think that everything in life is pre-determined. I am unsure of this and could drive myself crazy thinking did I lose my keys and miss the accident on the highway because God was intervening?Or was it my decision to take the Southern State Parkway in stead of Sunrise Highway the reason I wasn't in the accident.If i were on time and where the accident occurred at the time it happened would that of changed anything? Would my being there disrupt the accident?
Do my decisions play out in my life because it is pre-determined or if it is, do my choices make a difference in the way it would of played out?Have I made the right ones?Have my choices negitivly impacted on someone elses life? Positivly perhaps?
I am not much of an optimist but I feel most things turn out the way they do for the good. I believe God is and always will be in charge of the big stuff. Even If I don't understand how things turned out or why I am going to let the guy in charge worry about it.